FACT: We are all adults here.
And, as such, agreements made between adults should be kept between those adults. You don't like the terms? Don't participate in the deal. Walk away from the table at any time.
Reconsider your business model.
But whatever you do just shut the fuck up. The media is hungry. And you are the junk food. They feast on the indiscrete, the pathological liars. You're an offering to the legion of people looking to discharge their own shame on someone else in the comment section of [whatever fucking blog].
You are a sacrifice; a temporary distraction from others' personal failures. Don't wave yours around like a badge of honor.
Collateral damage is for children.